Candor Creek

Romp. Summer and I tried a little "playtime" in the snowy courtyard today, but it wound up being recall practice. She is very good at recall; what she isn't good at is being comfortable in the courtyard. I'm reasonably convinced that it has to do with an echo/reverberation between the buildings that she's particularly sensitive to. She's far more comfortable in these pictures because the snow muffles that reverb somewhat but in the warmer months the stress she experiences just sitting in the middle of the grass is truly alarming. It's stretching my experience as a behaviorist - and I love that for me, but not for her because it delays her resolution. I have some new plans for the upcoming year, however, that may help along with the normal exposure stuff. "There's home." "Complete recall!" I know she's not truly at ease in these pics. She would not roll around and play like she did in a differen...

My guardian during depressive evenings. I went three months and nearly two weeks with no epipen (!!!!!!) which was a huge milestone for me. Avoided it twice in that time by taking a certain med during what I call pre-anaphylaxis, but tonight's attack descended hard and fast. I almost thought I'd need the second pen. Now is when I'll own up to the weird depression I've had for a week - and you'll see why in a moment. A particularly rough two weeks of PMDD came and went, I was good and active for about five or six days, and then the paralyzing fog knocked me out again. Finally called psych doc so that she knows and we are not adjusting meds yet for various reasons, all of which I agree with. One of these is that one of the symptoms of MCAS can actually be depression (and anxiety) due to all those mast cells mucking things up in that blood/brain barrier. This means that if I'm having an inflamatory response the depression could be a side effect of that. Fu...