My New Blue

Current aesthetic: 2012 Toyota RAV4 (KBB stock photo)

Normally on the days that I sleep 15 hours and wake at something like 5PM I spend the day berating myself

But since I was out of the apartment for close to six hours (!!!) yesterday with constant social contact, doing something extremely stressful for anyone and with various levels of success and failure, ending with a large purchase - only to come home, completely detox everything that left with me, make a full meal, and then eventually take a planned increased dose of Seroquel (which makes me drugged and stupid, especially in the AM, for a few days as I adjust) to kill the growing mania right before heading to bed -

Yeah, I counted waking to and remembering that alarm as a victory and went right the hell back to sleep and feel fully justified in doing so. I do know that I can trigger anaphylaxis if the alarm is too early and, while it should have been ok, I was absolutely a fan of complete physical recovery today. I think the Seroquel can be used for sleep cycle regulation tonight after I've been up long enough to take my PM meds.

My New Blue: picking up next week after paperwork is completely sorted.

Here, I leave you with pictures of my new car, whose info I forgot to mention in my exhausted post from yesterday. He's (cars are always "he" for me, I don't get it either) a 2012 Toyota RAV4 4cyl in that lovely Pacific Blue, which was an extra bonus. Truly excellent condition - even my mechanic, who is just as detail oriented as I, was pleased for me. I got exactly what I wanted, right down to the year. I may not shut up about it for a while, but you need to understand two things. First, as a disabled individual, my vehicle is a huge part of my independence, and I've been driving something that can actually make me worse on a bad day for twoish years. Second, I've been researching and tracking numbers and trends and reading reviews and articles nightly for *six months* in preparation for an April/May purchase (before the hot season with no a/c which is dangerous when heat sensitive, before the mold season where I'm usually homebound like many of us are now and reactive) and saving what I could and figuring out how to get a decent down payment for *two years* on disability and SSI (hint: you can't do much and are actually technically disallowed from doing so, but that stim check kicked me into an entirely different bracket). I have to get used to not working on this project every day with that seasonal clock ticking just outside my windows.

I won't spam too badly, though, I promise. I just loved that little Metro of mine, lost it suddenly, and have been waiting for this moment for two years. I need a bit to get it out of my system.